insurmountable | i'm dragging a heart that weighs a ton / holding out for not just anyone

[ honestly, does he think this is going to be easily resolved by holding her hand? there's a part of her that's still fuming, her temper simmering and close to boiling over. it's annoying, the way he seems to treat this so nonchalantly. he's still smiling, teasing her despite everything.

and yet, having her hand in his is soothing, smoothing away those feathers that have been ruffled by the incident yesterday. ]

Is it really strange if I thought you were? [ she mutters under her breath, letting her fingertips lightly trace the knuckles of his hand.

her other hand comes up to his face, brushing the line of his jaw gently. any hint of that electro energy seems to be gone from his eyes, the blueness bright and untainted. he really is back, much to her relief and inward delight. ]

You're not allowed to kiss me with the mouth you kissed my brother with.

Edited 2022-06-15 23:36 (UTC)

[Ajax won't answer her question- it's not strange, given what she probably knows already from Aether and now from Yae. Instead, his eyes close momentarily as her hand brushes his jaw, before opening again to stare back into her golden ones.]

But it's the only mouth I have, [he protests with a gleam in his eyes,] and my teeth have been brushed since then.

[He leans in a bit closer now, that mischievous side of him curious whether she'd pull away or close the distance.]

You really wouldn't deny me a kiss now, would you? I just got back.

[ she could easily pull away. use the restaurant staff and the other patrons as an excuse. after all, this is quite embarrassing for the both of them, even if she doesn't know when she'll be back in inazuma. the last thing she wants is to make a reputation for herself in this city all because of ajax's neediness.

but lumine doesn't pull away. instead, she puts a hand over his mouth to stall his advances. ]

I'll kiss you, but you have to tell me what your deal was with Yae Miko.

[ she cocks an eyebrow, feigning a look of innocence on her expression. ] You wouldn't deny me an honest answer for a kiss, would you?

[He pulls back from her hand, enjoying how she's attempted to use this as leverage. Ajax doesn't know what she must think their deal was, but by the way Yae had scolded them all he's sure that Lumine isn't happy with her or any of the plans she has moving forward.]

Haha, it's probably not as bad as you think. I just have to summon her a few times a month so she can work on her novel, and let her eat at the nicest places in town on those days. She also requested that my next vacation here in Inazuma have a few days slotted so she can go visit Ei and enjoy the sights herself. She wants to see how Inazuma has changed since she's been dead.

[It's a sort of laugh-sigh that he lets out, how demanding Yae was about things.]

In exchange, we can call her at any time in case we need her. Given how easily she was able to turn the tide of that battle we had back there, I figured that it was a fine exchange. She did emphasize that it should only be in emergencies, but I think that's just because she's a little lazy, haha.

[ lumine can tell that the other lumine considers her a good friend. but she can also tell that her counterpart also gets exasperated over her, considering the swirl of feelings that seem to overwhelm her whenever yae would open her mouth and say something. unsurprising, really. ]

So, you're letting her use your body? To do whatever she wants?

[ sounds suspicious, to be honest. and truth be told, it's not something she approves of; after all, who knows what else she'd do in her ajax's body.

but it's his body, not hers. and if he agreed to let her borrow it, then she doesn't really have much to say about it. with a sigh, she gives him a quick, chaste kiss on the corner of his mouth before she turns back to the table. what, she didn't say what kind of kiss it was, right? ]

You're being too reckless about this, you know.

[It may be a quick, chaste kiss, but he still enjoys it. Even though they were up on the second floor, a waiter could come and interrupt them at any moment. But, he'll try to get a real one later, maybe back at the hotel. He hasn't decided yet.

Maybe he'll get her in the middle of the street.]

I know she rubbed you the wrong way, and even I voiced my displeasure with how she handled some things. But she really isn't a bad person, she just...likes to mess with people a little bit.

[For lack of a better term. Chuckling, he picks up a piece of sushi, pressing it against her lips.]

Don't worry, she's a friend. I knew her name the second she entered me. She even addressed me as Lord Harbinger, so I know she was friends with Childe and Lumine. Here, eat something. You haven't touched anything since you got here.

Edited 2022-06-16 01:45 (UTC)

[ friends don't threaten to possess someone else's body indefinitely. though she does feel that that's just how yae miko is, and it's something her counterpart used to deal with even back then. it's very frustrating, she's not going to lie, and if she were a little less composed, she might have torn her hair out.

lumine takes a bite of the sushi before she turns her head away, wrinkling her nose. ]

I'm not hungry, Ajax. [ or at least, whatever appetite she's had had been soured since yesterday. she pushes her cup of tea away, waving toward one of the waitstaff. ] If you want to have this packed for your men, go ahead. I'm pretty sure none of us can finish this.

[ yae is so wasteful, ordering so much but not even finishing all of it. and lumine's more than ready to go back to the inn and sleep this all off. ]

[Taking a glance over all the food still left on the table, maybe she's right there. But he only frowns, wishing she'd eat at least something, though it's clear she's still upset, so he doesn't push. He sets the half eaten piece of sushi down, squeezing her hand once before letting go and hailing down a waiter that he spots in the hallway right outside the room to ask if the rest of the remaining food can be packed up.

Once they leave, he turns back to her, rubbing her back.]

Alright, I'll drop it all off with one of my guys. I'm sure they'll appreciate it. You look tired as it is, would you prefer to go back and rest? I'm a little tired too.

[Maybe a nice long hot bath will soothe her, but he'll let her decide.]

[ lumine gets up from her seat once the waiter leaves, ready to put all of this behind her. ]

Mm, I'd like that.

[ sleep it all off, forget it all happened, and then maybe, just maybe, she can return to her normal life when she wakes up. sure, it won't be as "normal" as she wanted it, not when aether already knows what's going on and she's certain her brother will have more questions. but as normal as she can get. ]

I still have work I've put off since yesterday, so I want to sort that out too. [ a beat: ] Don't worry about walking me to the inn. It's not that far away anyway. You can check on your men for now.

[The waiter comes back with a few bags and containers for all the food, letting Ajax pack it up and getting it ready to take with them.]

Since you took out that god, I'm sure we're free to roam the island as we please without worry of being in danger for now.

[The last bag gets tied off, and he stands with her with them in hand.]

But I still would rather come with anyway.

[He doesn't say why, but he doesn't think he needs to say why. Ajax doesn't want to burden her with how stressed out he actually was, and how just having the opportunity to be with her is helping him relax after the events of the day prior. There's business he still needs to attend to, but he's not ready to take care of it yet, having already heard the reports of police finding a bunch of dead guys out near the Statue of the Seven on Kannazuka.]

[ they don't know that. they don't know what other danger lurks in inazuma, even with that god gone. a part of her no longer wishes to return to any of the statues, but she knows she needs to. this shouldn't stop her progress, even if it's already a huge stumbling block.

lumine doesn't protest nor does she ask him what will happen to his men. she doesn't even know how she'll be able to face them, knowing how they wouldn't have lost their lives if they haven't gotten roped into this mess that they're in. she waves a small goodbye to the waitstaff as they leave, starting towards the direction of the inn. ]

What ... are you going to tell your family regarding the guys you lost ...

[ surely his father wouldn't just accept it as collateral damage? does he even know what's happening to them? ]

If you'll let me shoulder any compensation, I'll happily do so. Just tell me.

[Stepping out with her to begin their trek back to the inn, he spots one of his guys up against a building. He jerks his head to indicate that he needs him, handing off the food and letting him know to take that to the remaining guys to eat. He'll handle this from here, so they can relax for a few hours.

Once that's taken care of, he speaks quietly to her as they walk the streets.]

I'll tell them the truth with a few details omitted. The whole reason we even found out about the little operation that was here was because we've had dealings with the family these gods seems to be involving themselves in. Do you remember how the boys thought your car might have been a bomb and that they'd seen guys belonging to Dufort hanging around? That's them. We've had plenty of issues with them in the past, but to think they'd stoop this low...

[His hand comes up to his mouth, thinking.]

I don't know what kind of power these so-called remnants of Celestia promised them, but not only have they been taken in by it, that's given our enemies that much more resources to be a real problem.

[He doesn't address the compensation. It's not even a worry on his mind.]

[ what a pain.

hearing all of that is making her head hurt even more, making her even more exhausted. clearly, this goes beyond just the three of them now, involving his family with the connection celestia has made with their enemies. she wonders if there's no way to cut them out of it completely. maybe if she and aether disappeared, left entirely—the gods seemed to be targeting them, and not ajax per se ...

besides, if the dreams she's had lately were true ...

she gives the person at the front desk a nod upon reaching the inn, moving through its hallways like she's moving through syrup. she tosses her keys, her phone and purse on the table in her room and shuffles towards one of the seats overlooking the outdoor garden. ]

What do we do? I didn't think even your family would get involved. I ...

[ this is getting more and more complicated. this isn't what she was hoping for when she accepted this fate from the other lumine. ]

[Following her in, he dumps his jacket on the bed, feeling stifled by it. He doesn't take a seat with her, instead opting to stand behind it to let one of his hands fall onto her shoulder and the other on the back of the chair as he looks out at the garden. It was a calming sight, the flowers that sway lightly in the breeze, colors deliberately chosen to highlight the land of the Electro Archon. Flowers his guys would never get to see, thanks to their foes.]

We keep doing what we have been. The Dufont family has always been a thorn in our side- that will never change. What's most important is to take out the gods using them to get to us. I had a feeling it was going to be something like this, when Aether texted me to inform me that you'd gotten jumped in some alleyway.

[Ajax rubs her shoulder, in reassurance.]

Don't forget, we've got resources and allies on our side too. We'll get through this, I promise.

[ the hand on her shoulder is heavy, weighed down by as much worry as she's plagued with. it's reflective of how ajax carries his own burden, putting it all on himself and keeping anyone, including her, from seeing it. it's the same when they've both seen the vision of their deaths, steeling himself for her.

a part of her deeply, intimately knows that he'll never show his weakness, even to her. and that part of her aches to know this, helpless in even coaxing him to let things go.

she reaches out to him, hand snaking up with arm and curling around his sleeve and shoulder. lumine tugs him down just as she sits up a little higher, tucking her legs underneath her. ]

Are you sure you're not jinxing us by making that promise?

[ what if he can't keep it? what if they're doomed to follow the fate of their counterparts? lumine doesn't think she'll be able to live through it again. ]

[It's easy to tug him downward, his legs walking back a little so he can lean down to allow his head to be next to hers, as he leans up against the chair with his arm coming to rest across her stomach as she sits up. He knows it must be hard on her too, to have to bear the burden of watching people die, to know that they have to face an unimaginable strength that only decided to rear its head recently.

That they have to protect the ones they love, and having it all thrust upon them so quickly. It makes his head spin if he thinks on it for too long.

He wishes he could do this alone for her, so she wouldn't have to go through the frightening experience of fighting them, if almost losing her body wasn't enough.]

I always keep my promises, [he says, pressing a kiss to her cheek.] If anything, I've just assured that we'll be able to get through this.

[Ajax lets his head droop down into the crook of her neck, letting himself breathe her in. To think, that just twenty-four hours ago, he thought he'd never get the chance to do so ever again.]

[ her hand sinks into his hair, fingers gently curling around the strands as she lets her gaze flicker toward the garden once more. it's peaceful for now, but for how long, she wonders. how long until the next incident happens, until something worse takes place? until she's pulled out from her moment of respite once more and forced to play a role she's not meant to play.

lumine thinks about the incident yesterday once more, letting her thoughts linger on how much aether was in danger, even with his vision on him. she's admittedly surprised they're both still alive after all of that. ]

... How did you find it? [ she asks idly, almost like an afterthought, as she strokes his hair. ] Kissing Aether.

[ what, she's curious. the video is still in her phone, even. and yae miko seems to be planning on writing a book about it. perhaps she should talk to her if she ever inhabits ajax's body again regarding her brother's royalties. ]

[His head sinks further down when she asks. Asking like it's not a big deal, like it's barely worth concern like that. He might be even more mortified that she even remembered it had she not been stroking his hair, the only comfort he has right now.

With his voice muffled against her skin, he sighs heavily.]

You know, that's not a memory I'd particularly like to remember. It was hard enough looking Aether in the eye earlier.

[It was awful, he radiates of mortification, and he'll never want to speak of it again.]

You deleted that video, didn't you?

[Didn't she??????]

[ lumine stifles a snort at his comment and sigh. he makes it sound like it's a fate worse than death, kissing her brother. then again, aether wanted to avoid talking about it, even avoided her eyes when the conversation briefly touched upon it yesterday. which honestly makes her wonder if something is going on that she doesn't know about.

at the mention of the video, she blinks. oh right, the video. ]

Mm, I don't think I did. [ she'd walk over to the table to get her phone but she's currently pinned down on the chair by him. ] Why? Did you want to see it?

[ sus. ]

Uh, no.

[The answer comes quick, with no hesitation. He doesn't want to see it, he already saw it when the evil spirit that possessed her body showed it to him as she laughed. He picks his head up, looking at her in exasperation, moreso because the event had happened in the first place rather than the video existing.]

Could you delete it, if you don't mind? I don't want to think about evidence of that existing...

[He's not pouting, but he's about to.]

[ she turns to look at him when he glances up, snorting at his pout. he's not a child to be pouting at him just because he didn't get what he wants. how spoiled. still, it's amusing to watch him get squirm and fidget just because of that one little video. ]

I mean, it could be useful one day.

[ for blackmail purposes, just in case she wants something from him and needs to light a fire up his ass. that sort of thing. not that she intends to, but sometimes, things happen ...

a faint smile tugs at the corner of her lips in amusement, nudging his nose with hers. ] What am I getting in return if I delete it?

[Ajax's jaw drops, not believing at first what she's said. His own...lover? Girlfriend? Partner? Whatever they are, asking for something in return...after he saved her!]

This is how I'm repaid for sacrificing myself? Are you really holding the deletion of that video at ransom? Even I didn't expect you to sink that low.

[Evil, pure evil. He thought this adorably mortified face would have been enough to get it deleted. Ajax considers going to grab the phone himself to find it and delete it, but he's not entirely sure how serious she's being, so-]

Alright, what's your demands? I might consider them if they're reasonable enough.

[He nuzzles the side of her face, before letting his cheek rest against hers, waiting for her inevitably unreasonable demands, he's sure.]

[ to be fair, it was yae miko who saved her ... ]

I only accept a yes to my demands if you want that video deleted.

[ as uncompromising as ever. after all, even if ajax decides to snatch her phone from the table, he needs her full cooperation to unlock it—either that, or he needs to cut off her finger. and he has to decide which finger it is he needs to cut. ]

Besides, I won't ask for anything right now. [ there's nothing that she wants at the moment anyway, other than over eight hours of sleep. ] So it'll be tucked away for a rainy day.

[She really is going to hold it over his head. How dastardly. He huffs once, before letting his head settle back down onto her shoulder, pouting.]

How cruel, Lumine...as if it weren't humiliating enough...

[Just thinking about it is tiring. Lifting his head, he stands up straight to look back at the bed. It looked pretty inviting, if he's being honest. Definitely wouldn't mind a nap.]

Hey, [he says, leaning back down while he begins to giver her shoulders a massage,] you know, I've got an idea. Why don't we rest for a bit? That is why we came back here, isn't it?

[Maybe he can convince her to delete the video after she's rested and in a better mood.]

[ looks like he's not too determined in getting rid of it if he's being wishy-washy about it. she just laughs, giving him a patronising pat on the shoulder. but sure, they can certainly talk about it again later; hopefully, by then, she'll have something she wants and use the video for.

lumine glances over her shoulder as well towards the bed, finding it very inviting too. after all, she did say that she's tired and she simply wanted to return to the inn. ajax's hands on her shoulders are also not helping. ]

You really better be suggesting rest and not anything else, [ she mutters, stretching her arms above her head. ] Who knows when Aether comes back.

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