[He has to exhale heavily. He knew it. He had a feeling something about his exclamation just moments ago had bothered Yu. And he knew exactly what it was too, just like anything he's ever said in the past to Kanji, or the like. He knows the comments about being creeped out by other guys, not being comfortable even in a close proximity to another if it meant something further than just sleeping in a tent for a night, were hurtful. Being close, open even, it was just a concept he had a hard time grasping. It was easier, now, to accept it from other people. But himself- it was a total enigma, with no clue how to handle it.
His shoulders slump, guilt setting in from the confirmation of Yu's quiet voice. There's an initial tightening in his chest, an anxious pain that spread that coupled with the feeling of his stomach dropping out. Of course he didn't want to make Yosuke uncomfortable. There was a line, one that he knew his partner wouldn't cross. A line that he'd crossed.
His own hands clench, unsure if he should make the gesture to take Yu's hand or not. So they stay in his own lap, as he looked downwards in shame at himself.]
I say some pretty stupid things sometimes-! [His voice uplifts a little, even though his mood doesn't quite reach the same level.] But, it's not like that. I'm just getting used to this. I never imagined that I'd ever be sitting here, on another planet, telling my partner that I loved him.
[He hesitates, but resolves himself at least to reach over finally, to take Yu's hand in his own. Yosuke lets his fingers curl around, slowly, twining them between each other before he firmly grips his hand, squeezing it once before shifting his gaze to look at his partner.]
It feels like it's happened so fast. I thought that I'd get a girlfriend eventually, maybe even get married someday. Maybe have kids or something. But now...
[He doesn't finish his sentence. Because he's actually trying to make an effort to not say something stupid.]
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[He has to exhale heavily. He knew it. He had a feeling something about his exclamation just moments ago had bothered Yu. And he knew exactly what it was too, just like anything he's ever said in the past to Kanji, or the like. He knows the comments about being creeped out by other guys, not being comfortable even in a close proximity to another if it meant something further than just sleeping in a tent for a night, were hurtful. Being close, open even, it was just a concept he had a hard time grasping. It was easier, now, to accept it from other people. But himself- it was a total enigma, with no clue how to handle it.
His shoulders slump, guilt setting in from the confirmation of Yu's quiet voice. There's an initial tightening in his chest, an anxious pain that spread that coupled with the feeling of his stomach dropping out. Of course he didn't want to make Yosuke uncomfortable. There was a line, one that he knew his partner wouldn't cross. A line that he'd crossed.
His own hands clench, unsure if he should make the gesture to take Yu's hand or not. So they stay in his own lap, as he looked downwards in shame at himself.]
I say some pretty stupid things sometimes-! [His voice uplifts a little, even though his mood doesn't quite reach the same level.] But, it's not like that. I'm just getting used to this. I never imagined that I'd ever be sitting here, on another planet, telling my partner that I loved him.
[He hesitates, but resolves himself at least to reach over finally, to take Yu's hand in his own. Yosuke lets his fingers curl around, slowly, twining them between each other before he firmly grips his hand, squeezing it once before shifting his gaze to look at his partner.]
It feels like it's happened so fast. I thought that I'd get a girlfriend eventually, maybe even get married someday. Maybe have kids or something. But now...
[He doesn't finish his sentence. Because he's actually trying to make an effort to not say something stupid.]