No, I don't want you to call me Childe. I don't want to think of myself as him. It's just...
[Ajax's hand comes up to push his hair up out of his face, holding his forehead in frustration. It's not that, but he can't explain it well at all. How in some aspects, he hasn't changed at all, either because it hasn't gotten to that point or because he and Childe are so much alike that there was no difference to begin with. That only small parts of the Harbinger have come through noticeably, but he'll refrain from telling her that- because it's upsetting, and it's already bad enough he's upset.
He doesn't want to upset her any more than he already has.]
When...I'm me, I see you. I can see the difference between yourself and your ancient counterpart, and I don't conflate the two. But sometimes, not always however, in intimate moments...it's as if both worlds blend together. I'm not sure if that makes sense.
[Ajax hopes she understands. He looks as upset as he sounds, not hiding how he feels about this. It's a reality that's shaken him to his core, and even now he's trying his best to be honest and yet supportive all at the same time.]
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[Ajax's hand comes up to push his hair up out of his face, holding his forehead in frustration. It's not that, but he can't explain it well at all. How in some aspects, he hasn't changed at all, either because it hasn't gotten to that point or because he and Childe are so much alike that there was no difference to begin with. That only small parts of the Harbinger have come through noticeably, but he'll refrain from telling her that- because it's upsetting, and it's already bad enough he's upset.
He doesn't want to upset her any more than he already has.]
When...I'm me, I see you. I can see the difference between yourself and your ancient counterpart, and I don't conflate the two. But sometimes, not always however, in intimate moments...it's as if both worlds blend together. I'm not sure if that makes sense.
[Ajax hopes she understands. He looks as upset as he sounds, not hiding how he feels about this. It's a reality that's shaken him to his core, and even now he's trying his best to be honest and yet supportive all at the same time.]