[Why hasn't he wanted to have sex with her today? She raises a good point that reinforces what he was already thinking about. When he searches his own feelings in this moment, he finds that he only wants to fuck her a normal amount. There isn't a trace of the overwhelming feeling to fuck her into pregnancy like he had the day before. Yesterday, however, he did something to her. Used that dark energy inside of himself and put it in her...something else he's been thinking about.]
Well...
[He knows this will probably scare her. He doesn't want to scare her, he doesn't want to make her worry, but at the same time he can't keep trying to hide it. It's going to come out sooner or later, so he takes a minute to take a big breath in and out as he sorts out what really happened to him during that moment.]
That presence inside of me is a lot more powerful than what I originally gave it credit for. It was there, ready to give me the power to fight off that monster, and I took it. That fog was probably the result of my willingness to utilize the power of that monster and the dark armor. I was afraid I'd lose myself and that monster inside of me would take over my body and mind, but I felt it was necessary to save you. Thankfully, it didn't, and I was able to retain my own consciousness, save for slipping fully into the "king" personality. However, I could feel how it influenced my mind, and every second that we were making that strange creature suffer by our attacks made me gleeful and satisfied. It's like...I felt offended that the creature we were fighting was so weak and pathetic in my eyes. The monster inside of me kept whispering to me to let go and accept who I really am, and its dark influence was spreading out through my whole body. I fought it off as best as I could, so I didn't fall to it's influence, but...it frightened me.
[He looks down at the ground, a little ashamed to have to admit to something like that. Ajax feels so vulnerable, like he doesn't have control of himself or the situation around them, and it feels terrible.]
And yet, it's that monster and the power within me that I know I'll have to rely on to stay alive. It wants me to become that "king" that comes out during sex or those desperate times, and it wants me to let it out from the place I have it locked in inside of me.
So I think I know how to bring my own powers out again, but as for the cost...
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Well...
[He knows this will probably scare her. He doesn't want to scare her, he doesn't want to make her worry, but at the same time he can't keep trying to hide it. It's going to come out sooner or later, so he takes a minute to take a big breath in and out as he sorts out what really happened to him during that moment.]
That presence inside of me is a lot more powerful than what I originally gave it credit for. It was there, ready to give me the power to fight off that monster, and I took it. That fog was probably the result of my willingness to utilize the power of that monster and the dark armor. I was afraid I'd lose myself and that monster inside of me would take over my body and mind, but I felt it was necessary to save you. Thankfully, it didn't, and I was able to retain my own consciousness, save for slipping fully into the "king" personality. However, I could feel how it influenced my mind, and every second that we were making that strange creature suffer by our attacks made me gleeful and satisfied. It's like...I felt offended that the creature we were fighting was so weak and pathetic in my eyes. The monster inside of me kept whispering to me to let go and accept who I really am, and its dark influence was spreading out through my whole body. I fought it off as best as I could, so I didn't fall to it's influence, but...it frightened me.
[He looks down at the ground, a little ashamed to have to admit to something like that. Ajax feels so vulnerable, like he doesn't have control of himself or the situation around them, and it feels terrible.]
And yet, it's that monster and the power within me that I know I'll have to rely on to stay alive. It wants me to become that "king" that comes out during sex or those desperate times, and it wants me to let it out from the place I have it locked in inside of me.
So I think I know how to bring my own powers out again, but as for the cost...