[ Finally, the salmon cooking in the bright sizzling pan reaches the crisp she's been looking for. Now that the main course is finished, she moves to the side to plate them, giving Ajax the room to work his magic on the cucumbers. She looks over, impressed with his handiwork, he's got some expert knife-handling skills. Those thin cucumber slices are cut with such delicate accuracy that her mind wonders if he's more intimate with a blade than just simple cooking. Maybe he's had to bust out those skills for his job...
And this is the guy she can't stop thinking about, the man she hopes will impregnate her one day. She's not even sure if she should be this close to a man who kidnaps people for a living. But either way, Ajax is right, this whole situation is terrifying. The idea that they aren't in control of their own feelings is disturbing and now, she can't help but wonder... are they being drawn to each other because of genuine attraction? Or is their budding relationship being forced upon them by some unseen force? The expression on his face says it all, he's clearly bothered and she understands the sentiment. If this attraction wasn't genuine, then this is going to hurt both of them in the long run. ]
I wish I could give you a solid answer.
[ The rice cooker opens with a pop, she fills up two bowls full of white, fluffy rice, bringing them to the table along with the plates of salmon on a tray. While he's working on the cucumbers, she returns to grab the bowls of miso soup, carrying it as she attempts to gather her thoughts together. ]
It's scary, almost as if we're being violated with feelings that might not be genuine. I too, can't stop thinking about going back to bed so we can continue trying to make a baby together. I like children and all but we only just met. And even though I'm not ready to have a family, my heart keeps telling me otherwise.
[ Although she's still unsure about his job, Ajax has somewhat proven himself in the short time they've known each other. But even so, she doesn't want to have kids with anyone right now, it's too soon. They barely know each other and yet, she wishes to start a family with him. None of this sits well with her. ]
I don't know what to do either. I'm scared of losing control if things keep progressing like this.
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And this is the guy she can't stop thinking about, the man she hopes will impregnate her one day. She's not even sure if she should be this close to a man who kidnaps people for a living. But either way, Ajax is right, this whole situation is terrifying. The idea that they aren't in control of their own feelings is disturbing and now, she can't help but wonder... are they being drawn to each other because of genuine attraction? Or is their budding relationship being forced upon them by some unseen force? The expression on his face says it all, he's clearly bothered and she understands the sentiment. If this attraction wasn't genuine, then this is going to hurt both of them in the long run. ]
I wish I could give you a solid answer.
[ The rice cooker opens with a pop, she fills up two bowls full of white, fluffy rice, bringing them to the table along with the plates of salmon on a tray. While he's working on the cucumbers, she returns to grab the bowls of miso soup, carrying it as she attempts to gather her thoughts together. ]
It's scary, almost as if we're being violated with feelings that might not be genuine. I too, can't stop thinking about going back to bed so we can continue trying to make a baby together. I like children and all but we only just met. And even though I'm not ready to have a family, my heart keeps telling me otherwise.
[ Although she's still unsure about his job, Ajax has somewhat proven himself in the short time they've known each other. But even so, she doesn't want to have kids with anyone right now, it's too soon. They barely know each other and yet, she wishes to start a family with him. None of this sits well with her. ]
I don't know what to do either. I'm scared of losing control if things keep progressing like this.