[ She's not the only one utterly drained of energy, Ajax is as well. Although he's doing his best to smile, she can tell that behind those blue eyes is a man who is also a shell of his former energetic self. No doubt that everything that's transpired has weighed heavily on his mind. She's sure he's wracked with guilt and it hurts her to think about Ajax suffering in silence all alone.
But as it stands...
Her eyes shift over to Panatlone, nodding her head in appreciation. It's true, she indeed trusts Ajax with all of her heart. Any other day, she'd jump into his arms, cry into his chest, and tell him how much her heart ached for him. The warmth of his body has always been her greatest source of comfort but... she can't allow him to touch her right now, not when the image of him pining her down onto the snowy ground with a blade against her throat is still burned into her mind. ]
No. Not physically.
[ She says quietly, lacking her usual Yoimiya energy in her voice. A few bandages have been applied to the cuts and scrapes that she received in the fight but those minor injuries aren't what damaged her the most. No bandage can heal the wound that's been inflicted on her heart. Those cuts will heal in just a few days, but the emotional scarring that she's received will take time.
That apology is wracked with so much guilt, she can hear how much he's also been hurting. Slowly, she looks up to meet his gaze and sees those blue eyes afflicted with regret beyond words can describe. Deep down inside, she knows it's not his fault. Something got a hold of him and tried to force him into committing an atrocity that would emotionally damage him beyond repair. It's another reminder of how weak she is, maybe, just maybe, she could have prevented all of this if she was just a little bit stronger. She locks stares with him for a solid minute before quickly shifting her gaze back to her hands. It's hard to look at him right now, staring into those blue eyes is a reminder of that crazy, twisted expression he had when he nearly killed her. ]
What happened out there? One minute we were having a fun fight and then the next...
[ You tried to kill me. She stops herself, unable to voice that chilling thought. Ajax has already been through enough as it is, she doesn't wish to make him feel even worse than he already does. ]
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But as it stands...
Her eyes shift over to Panatlone, nodding her head in appreciation. It's true, she indeed trusts Ajax with all of her heart. Any other day, she'd jump into his arms, cry into his chest, and tell him how much her heart ached for him. The warmth of his body has always been her greatest source of comfort but... she can't allow him to touch her right now, not when the image of him pining her down onto the snowy ground with a blade against her throat is still burned into her mind. ]
No. Not physically.
[ She says quietly, lacking her usual Yoimiya energy in her voice. A few bandages have been applied to the cuts and scrapes that she received in the fight but those minor injuries aren't what damaged her the most. No bandage can heal the wound that's been inflicted on her heart. Those cuts will heal in just a few days, but the emotional scarring that she's received will take time.
That apology is wracked with so much guilt, she can hear how much he's also been hurting. Slowly, she looks up to meet his gaze and sees those blue eyes afflicted with regret beyond words can describe. Deep down inside, she knows it's not his fault. Something got a hold of him and tried to force him into committing an atrocity that would emotionally damage him beyond repair. It's another reminder of how weak she is, maybe, just maybe, she could have prevented all of this if she was just a little bit stronger. She locks stares with him for a solid minute before quickly shifting her gaze back to her hands. It's hard to look at him right now, staring into those blue eyes is a reminder of that crazy, twisted expression he had when he nearly killed her. ]
What happened out there? One minute we were having a fun fight and then the next...
[ You tried to kill me. She stops herself, unable to voice that chilling thought. Ajax has already been through enough as it is, she doesn't wish to make him feel even worse than he already does. ]